The first post

Yea! my first blog post.  Hopefully this will go a little better than my journalling.  This blog is for two things, primarily to put up information about my treatment for nodular lymphocyte predominant Hodgkin lymphoma (NLPHL) is going, and secondarily, to vent a little bit where others might comment on it.  As far as the info part, I don't anticipate any problems.

As far as the venting part, I have been around this track, both the cancer track and the spiritual track, a few times.  Part of the venting process it to be able to hear, or in this case see, my own words so that I can cognitively manage the emotions and information better.  Please keep that in mind, and if you haven't been here, don't tell me how it is or what I should be feeling.  I do journal about death quite a bit, it has been an existential and spiritual concern of mine since I was a teenager.  I do know a fair bit about it both experientially as well as theoretically.  I have worked with hospice for a year and a half and at the cancer center for a year, it is something I deal with on a regular basis.  I am open and raw and it may appear "dark"; if it makes you too uncomfortable, you are free to stop reading and move on to the next informational post. Because I can talk about death, doesn't make me suicidal, I interact with professionals on a regular basis, and they think I am rather healthy.  Also I am not "losing my Christianity," I don't need to be saved, I've been on the North Face of God before and it only made me stronger and opened my mind to how awesome God is.

On the issue of spelling.  The English language is a mess and doesn't even follow its own rules.  So...if you know what the 'right' spelling is, then you know what the word is, that means my communication was effective, and frankly, that is what I care about.  I can proof and grade writing, I did it well as a TA, but I'm not getting paid to do it here and neither are you.

Wow, I sound pretty aweful here.  Really, I am not that uptight and snarky, I just don't need anymore frustration at this moment so I thought I would be proactive with a boundary or two.  So if you are up  to it, read on.